Happy Anniversary
On with my mittens in the the chill of the shade, and then off with my mid-layer in the heat of the sun.
It was that time of year, mid-March, when Old Man Winter had just begun to pack up his suitcases, but Spring’s plane hadn’t quite landed yet.
The boomerang of this temperature flux, causing my nose to run like wild.
“Hmphhhh!”
And onto the carpet of the Appalachian Trail, my snot rocket landed.
I smiled.
And then I wiped my snotty hand off onto the knee of my leggings.
I was home.
It was March 18th, 2023, and spending my “Trailversary” alone in Appalachia had become tradition. Last year, on Maryland’s Weverton Cliffs, and now my second, atop Pine Grove Furnace’s Pole Steeple.
Last August, my Mom, Aunt Sandra, Uncle Roy, and myself made plans to surprise my Dad at a local rib joint, surprising him for his 75th birthday.
Dee Jay’s Ribs was located 5.2 miles from my home.
And so I walked there.
My route was lined with guardrails and gas stations, not rhododendron or blue jay. But it was also lined with my high school bus stop, at the corner of Union Avenue and Perez Way. And the Kentucky Fried Chicken, where my 16 year-old self worked for a mere 5 hours, until my resignation, after learning that I was required to scrub their public toilets in addition to serving mashed potatoes with their sporks. And Union Electric Steel, where my Grandfather earned his living, providing for my Father and the rest of his family.
I would have missed these landmarks of nostalgia and the feelings that each of them unearthed in me if I were driving at 45mph, behind the wheel of my vehicle.
When we walk, we slow down.
We keep our head where our feet are.
We see.
We feel.
When my only way up and over Old Speck Mountain, Maine, September 20th, 2021, was to accept. To lose control. To walk. I trusted.
Those mountains. My planted feet, allowed me to naviagte my Father’s cancer diagnosis, January 17th, 2023, with calm.
I was both humbled and honored when Mills Kelly asked me for an interview. Not to mention, one that I would be sharing the microphone with trail icon and National Geographic Adventurer of the Year, Jennifer Pharr Davis. Mills, host of The Green Tunnel Podcast, shared, “Hikers head to the Appalachian Trail for many reasons and many are seeking some sort of reset in their lives. In this episode, The Call of the Trail, we explore the history of those personal journeys.”
Dr. Susan Bratton, author of The Spirit of the Appalachian Trail: Community, Environment, and Belief, also shared her wisdom through Mills’ interview. Susan reminds us of the traditional nature of the motive for this pilgrimage, the influence of romanticism, and the role that transcendentalism plays in one’s quest.
When I set out to thru hike the Appalachian Trail, just as when I stepped out of my marriage, I decided to become someone who I had no context for.
The story between you and your future self.
Between you and your neighbor.
He rounded the corner of the duplexed home, that we now share, towards the back yard. I was taking my virgin attempt at power sanding a newly thrifted bistro set. “Looks like fun, kid. I have a similar set on the front porch that needs a good sand if you’re offering.”, he chuckled.
I did not chuckle.
I was tangled in one too many extension cords.
“They tell me that you’re a hiker.”, continued Sir Sandman, abutting me. I told my new neighbor, roughly 35 years my senior, briefly of where I’ve traveled on foot and my plans to put it to paper.
“But you’re too young (**insert Southern drawl here) to write a memoir. I mean, what have you done yet?”, his chuckle returned.
I asked Sandman McChuckles if he had ever been homeless.
His snicker faded into more of a nervous hum, now understanding that my book shan’t be judged by its cover.
Just as the clerk working at 7-11 shouldn’t have shamed the bicyclist last Thursday. I could feel the cyclist’s novice, nervousness, and self-consciousness as I entered the convenient store. For I had once been there myself, timid as I learned to ride my hybrid through the city streets, feeling as though I didn’t fit in. As though I wasn’t one of “them”, despite being clad in padded shorts and pannier bags. She had brought her road bike into the store, not having a safe space to lock her wheels outside. Would it be stolen if I left it outside? Am I allowed to take it in with me? As she juggled her bike and the Gatorade that she sought to quench her thirst, the energy drink crashed to the linoleum floor, soaking it, and herself with embarrassment. Why did I think that I was capable of this? Why did I even leave the house?
“What a MESS you’ve made! And you still have to pay for that! And you CAN’T have that bike in here!”, Clerk Rachet screamed as she reached for her mop.
Hurt people, hurt people.
Bicycle Betty, trembling, while inadvertently sabotaging a display of Cadbury Creme Eggs, left a $5 bill on the counter as she pointed her chariot towards the door.
“Yes, ma’am”, she whispered, her head down.
We, humans to humans, need to understand that the person on the other side of our fence has a story to tell too.
Strive to see things as they are, not as we are.
Bicycle Betty, I give you the hope to get back up on your horse again. And again. And again.
Just as I shouldn’t have judged Lily.
There was an empty bunk in our 8 person Bruce Hall suite, sophomore year at the University of Pittsburgh, after Diesel left us for Guam. Well actually, she left us for mortuary school. But as 19 year-olds, we were mortified for her. And for ourselves. So Guam, it was.
When there was a knock at the door.
“Hi. I’m Lily. The University assigned me to y’alls place. My dorm room up at Sutherland Hall caught fire after I put a hot dog in the toaster.”
She was holding a toaster.
Or should I have judged Lily?…
John Noltner, of A Peace of My Mind podcast, interviewed Greg Campbell on March 10th. “Greg Campbell has gone home to die. His liver and kidneys are failing and on Wednesday, March 8th, he left the hospital because he didn’t want to die in an institution. He has chosen to die at home where he finds peace and love and safety.”, Noltner shares in his show notes.
Greg seemed so relaxed and comfortable with the trail that he was on, “Am I sad? Yeah. But this is the trail I’m on. And I have to finish the trail.”
Campbell, although having never hiked a long distance trail, subscribed to the “village” mentality.
To your future self…
Happy anniversary.